I remember when I packed my suitcase
Until something inside told me I can't
I was scared of any changes ahead
Of embarking on different ways
And last year this time of year
I wasn't home for your birthday or mine
I wasn't home for our cat's funeral
I wonder where I'll be this time
And the one time Mum had to come
When I returned early from Paris
The fear of getting things wrong
Kept me from meeting the premise
I remember I thought I was done
Thought I was where I belong
Just to be surprised again
I had to leave and move on
Now it's this time of year again
I just don't seem to be getting closer
You have me start all over again
Where will I be this October?
Didn't think I'd ever wish upon a star
Or that I'd ever travel this far
Didn't think I'd fall in love over night
Didn't think all this could turn out alright
Would've thought that it would stop
I'm fighting for composure
Would've guessed I'd be grown up
One of these Octobers
God knows how tired we are now and then
With all those plans come and gone
But dearest, know that he don't send
A thing we couldn't build dreams upon
Now I'm still just trying to be patient
I'm waiting for disclosure
And even though I'm tired sometimes
I'm glad there are Octobers
